Tuesday, August 30, 2005
We're Here
Well, I'm here, we're here. Whatever that may mean. I find myself being extremely negative these past couple of days, don't know if that's due to the death process and loss of everything in Idaho or not. Maybe just my tendency in general. I can be a little dramatic. Ok A LOT dramatic at times. I feel as though I have lost who I am. No more job, no more house, no more friends. Who am I really? In whom or what does my security lie? Of course, I know the answer is God, but here is where the rubber really meets the road. Does my contentment depend on the circumstances surrounding me, or do I find my joy in the knowledge that I am free? Truly free.
Monday, August 29, 2005
We're Here part two
Well, we're here. Billings, Montana. Some time to myself while the boys are napping. I really don't know what to write, I've been told it would help while adjusting to life over here to write in a journal and since I"ve been meaning to write again why not start now? Got to make sure to have some alone time being home with the kids full time. Jamison is sick with a cold and I'm hoping it's not turning into an ear infection as we don't have any insurance at the moment.
Things spiritually have been good lately, it takes faith to move away from home, leaving Real LIfe was difficult as was leaving Kim & Sarah. I know God will provide more friends for me here. Just settling in I suppose. God really spoke to me during the sermon yesterday, about gossiping abou the "Bride of Christ". It's the same to Jesus when I judge by whispering things about others. It's like saying "Hey, looky here, someone's got a problem!" The smae as if someone had an embarrasing piece of spinach between their teeth and instead of being kind to tell them about it discreetly, I say "Hey EVERYONE!! Look at that!" Gossiping is not loving people, and loving people is what IT is ALL about. I don't want gossip to be part of my life anymore, unfortunately it's been such a big part of my life (not so much with friends but usually what keeps the conversation going between Jim & I). There's no way this thing I can overcome this thing, thank God it has already been overcome by Jesus Christ. I am a new creature and this is not part of the alive part of me. All I have to do is ask and God will make alive in Christ that part of me which is already dead in sin. In fact, He already has done it.
I don't want to be a problem identifier in other peoples lives, I want to be part of the solution, which has been made possible through Christ Jesus. In Him I have been given the ministry of reconciliation. By speaking the truth in love, instead of just being a problem identifier.
Things spiritually have been good lately, it takes faith to move away from home, leaving Real LIfe was difficult as was leaving Kim & Sarah. I know God will provide more friends for me here. Just settling in I suppose. God really spoke to me during the sermon yesterday, about gossiping abou the "Bride of Christ". It's the same to Jesus when I judge by whispering things about others. It's like saying "Hey, looky here, someone's got a problem!" The smae as if someone had an embarrasing piece of spinach between their teeth and instead of being kind to tell them about it discreetly, I say "Hey EVERYONE!! Look at that!" Gossiping is not loving people, and loving people is what IT is ALL about. I don't want gossip to be part of my life anymore, unfortunately it's been such a big part of my life (not so much with friends but usually what keeps the conversation going between Jim & I). There's no way this thing I can overcome this thing, thank God it has already been overcome by Jesus Christ. I am a new creature and this is not part of the alive part of me. All I have to do is ask and God will make alive in Christ that part of me which is already dead in sin. In fact, He already has done it.
I don't want to be a problem identifier in other peoples lives, I want to be part of the solution, which has been made possible through Christ Jesus. In Him I have been given the ministry of reconciliation. By speaking the truth in love, instead of just being a problem identifier.
